So yesterday we cut our holiday short as after 25 months since referral we had Twin 1s communications appointment with community child health. For those of you that might not know this is the final assessment with the possibility of diagnosis for Autism.
It was 2 hours long with a new consultant and a specialist speech and language therapist. I played games with twin 1 and mum spoke to the consultant. Then we swapped.
At the end of 2 hours we were given the diagnosis that Twin 1 has Autism Spectrum Disorder. Albeit high functioning.
A lot of people ask why we wanted diagnosis. Are we labeling the kids? Do we want them to be autistic? NOPE! We just wanted to know either way. And let me just state the fact we didn’t mind either way. It makes no odds to us.
So obviously we though she was Autistic. So first reaction was relief. However throughout the day both me and mum went through every emotion possible I think.
We also told Twin 1 who if you remember is six. We have never hid anything from her but she still doesn’t understand fully whats going on. What she does know if that she is loved and supported and will now get more support. But even though more support is something she wants (and needs) at the same time she is embarrassed of it. Kids don’t want to be different.
I say that she doesn’t understand what’s going on. Neither do we though. It’s all a whirlwind. We’ve been preparing for this moment for more than 2 years and still feel so unprepared. We have the first half of Twin 2s assessment next week. The older ones is still to be booked in and who knows when mum will get hers. So much more info to take in. So much more to prepare for.
All 5 of us have been narky with each other all day today but we are all very emotional. Lots of snapping but lots of hugs too.
Disclaimer. I apologise if anything I say is not the right language but I am just using the consultants words.